Tuesday, March 10, 2009

ok. my butt seriously freaking hurts. i know it sounds dam dumb considering its one of the more cushioned parts of ur body. but i cant help squirming in my seat as i type this post cus its just so dam freaking achy and uncomfortable. freaking hell.

i smoked my crabbishly ranked office-mate today. i hope he was convinced. credit for clarification. i hope so man.

so i looked back alittle today. i remember the letter that didnt go thru. then a request came along. and i was like wow!

sometimes, almost 3 years down. things just get alittle too comfy. u love and ur loved. but the chase, the need to please just doesnt really feel like its there anymore. maybe there needs to be some competition. sounds thrilling huh. i know i have grown without knowing exactly wad i have grown into, maybe its a juxtaposition of the good & bad. but the positives i have felt about this relationships have never felt stronger.

at least i didnt feel as shitty as i did before i decided to blog. but i think i m quite a poor soccer player. ok. i got that returning burst of pace to intercept balls. but i either clear them to oblivion or pass them back to an opponent. i lack vision and composure on the ball even tho i have a improving but still relatively poor first touch. hmm. i love to play. but it gets demoralizing sometimes. recreation wise, for someone hu would probably do really well in soccer trivia and soccer theory. a frustrated liverpool fan who sticks around despite being constantly frustrated, i just dont play well enough in the sport to satisfy myself. maybe thats why i ve been turning to basketball, cus in bball m a noob, so i dont expect that much of myself, i cant name u more then 7 nba players. could it be the pressure?? i wish i could wad i do in fm and tell everyone, "i don't think the pressure ever gets to me at all."

yea. and i just went to pass something to my boss. and while walking back to my office i was trying to massage the aching area. and i thought. freaking hell. from behind, i must look like i m groping my own butt. wth.

ok. back to work.

|cowpoo| 9:30 AM|

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